Welcome to Indie Life, a blog hop, started by the Indelibles where Indie authors share a bit on the life of being a self published author!

We each have our favorite process of writing. Some love the editing stage, where their bare boned story fleshes out into something awesome. Others like the revision stage where their manuscript becomes a masterpiece.

Me, I love the writing stage. I love having a bare boned plot outline and watching the story come to life.

What I dread the most is the revision stage. Whether I’m working with beta readers, freelance editors or my editor at APub – doesn’t matter. Every single time I get my revision letter and copy back in an email I freeze, and it’s not just a split second type of freeze – it’s a few days, ‘please don’t make me open that document – I’d rather do anything else, including clean‘ type of freeze.

It’s a fear thing. Fear that I’m going to read that the editor/beta reader hated the story, that there are way too many changes for me to even continue (I’ve completely shelved books because of this), that what changes there are – I can’t handle it. It’s all fear based and I openly admit it.

Sweet Memories book

For the past 3 weeks I’ve been in this revision wasteland where I’m stuck in a rut and can’t get out. I managed to work on my indie book and release it (Sweet Memories – YEAH! for new releases!) – but my Apub novel…I’m still working on it and I promised I would have it done by Friday.

Silly me – what was I thinking?

Starbucks Pumpkin Spice Latte on Pinterest

All week long I’ve had to fortify myself with Pumpkin Spice Latte’s from Starbucks and chocolate. Every moment I work on my novel I have to remind myself that I can do it, that it’s a really good story and will be amazing when it releases. I have to remind myself that these changes I’m making – it’s to strengthen the story. But no matter how many times I remind myself of this – whenever I open that word document, I freeze. Every. Single. Time.

You know what’s going to happen, right? I’m sure you do because you’ve been there. By the time I’m finished the revisions on this (and it’s not even my first revision round on this book – this round is minimal compared to the last one) I’m going to look back and shake my head at myself and wonder why I allowed a concept, an idea based on fear stop me.

I know this because I do it Every. Single. Time.

So if you see me whining on social media about being in revision wasteland – threaten to take my chocolate away if I don’t smarten up. Will you?

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